Ντίνος Χριστιανόπουλος
Με κατάνυξη 

‘Ελα να ανταλλάξουμε κορμί και μοναξιά.
Να σου δώσω απόγνωση, να μην είσαι ζώο,
να μου δώσεις δύναμη, να μην είμαι ράκος.
Να σου δώσω συντριβή, να μην είσαι μούτρο,
να μου δώσεις χόβολη, να μην ξεπαγιάσω.
Κι ύστερα να πέσω με κατάνυξη στα πόδια σου,
για να μάθεις πια να μην κλωτσάς.

i dream i differ
i dream of dreams
i dream i dare to

and all that stays

is that inability to stay focused

and again and again i dream of dreaming.

i differed but it was the same
i dreamt of living
i dared and lost.

so every night instead of a prayer
i live to dream.

this photo is from the following blog:

http://youngdoo.net/blog/

read it.

will it EVER be mended?
do i have the power? or is it not about my power at all?

it is your decision.
it is your turn to either love me or leave me.

LOST

one day after xmas i feel i have lost my heart.

and i don't know how and if i can ever get it back...

my ILU, my dearest ever person... i miss you.

where have you gone?

once upon a time...

i dreamt of fairies,and wishes come true.
i think sometimes i dream of the unattainable.
but i will get my dreams real in the end.

it takes time to heal. i am in day 4. 4 days after the operation.
and i am really well. well and loved. i think i panicked my mother when i fainted a little after the surgery trying to walk in the orange-walled hospital corridor. Fainting is really really bad. it is. It is a little death, but reversed. this needs lots of explaining. Anyhow, now i am back home.

This home is made of love and friendship. Qualities rare to find in my life. I feel sooooo ME here, so relaxed and happy. When i look outside the window, i see masses of green trees and i hear a cock every morning. Just like how it was when i was 4 at my village up North and carefree. All i need is this home. And at a future day maybe my own. this is transit? i don't know/ all i care is that it makes me smile every time i enter the door here.

i have healed. and i don't mean the wound that is too fresh to talk about. itchy too. i have healed from all monstrous thoughts that have been gnawing my heart and my soul the last 10 years, and now i see the obvious; that they were too little to have made me so afraid. now i walk in love.


btw, have you listened to Monika's "AVATAR" CD? Gorgeous.


more to come, tomorrow.
i promise you...

i am blessed by the wonder of love.

Seneca - “While we are postponing, life speeds by.”

αυτό είναι, βλέπεις?

βρήκα φωτογραφία που στη χαρίζω.

ναι, εσένα. που χαμογελάς ήδη βλέποντάς την.

εγώ όταν σε δω ξανά, θα χαμογελάσω πάλι.

προς το παρόν, σου τα προσφέρω τα άστρα μαζί με πολλή πολλή αγάπη.

ελπίζω να σε φτάσει.